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Oh my goodness gracious.
I have absolutely no time.
Something that I am grateful for: First of all, that poem.  I just got frustrated with the people in my district and when I read that poem I realized that I am no better than anyone else when I try to be as “strong” and opinionated as them.  I am grateful for wisdom.  I am grateful that people sometimes can rise above what they are to be something so much better. The amazing thing is that its not even through anything we can do on our own, but it is through the grace and merit of Jesus Christ. 
Something that made me think: I have thought a lot about complementing people. Not in the way that we tell people something we notice about them, although that is an important part of really complementing someone, but complementing them in the sense that you bring out their best qualities that enable them to be more than they think they are.  Really complementing someone is giving them wings to fly… especially in a partnership or companionship, it has been really important for me to give up anything that I think is right and just allow my companion to do what she wants. Often it is so simple and perfect that I can’t fathom having done it my way first.  However, the investigator hears what they need to hear and I learn my lesson. I feel like this happened over and over again.  It is a humbling experience.  The most important thing is love. I know it sounds like it came from an 80s love song, but if love is the motivation of my service then Heavenly Father can really work through me to bless the lives of others. 
Something that made me laugh:
oh Kaela, I love you.  I opened that marvelous gift you gave me for christmas and I loved all of those stickers that you gave me.  I am so excited to give them to kids.  I wonder however, what I am supposed to do with the batman tatoos?  You know that as a missionary, I cant wear tatoos of any kind… right?  Haha, I love you and it made me laugh.
Have a wonderful week!
I leave on monday!
Hansen chamae
Dearest Family,
Hello from a block away at the MTC!  Things have been pretty good this week.  Nothing really exciting happened, but life is good nonetheless.  Brother Heaton spoke to us on Sunday!  It was so good.  We really come from a unique stake.  There is so much wisdom there.  HE talked about how sometimes hearts change so imperceptibly.  It was really inspirational because we really can{t see everything at once. Heavenly Father knows us so well and gives us the experiences we most need to prepare us for what is next in our lives.  It is the same with the people that we teach.  We cant tell everything that is going through their head, but he is preparing them the entire time.
Something I am grateful for:
Because we lost a teacher a couple of weeks ago, we got another teacher to take his place. This teachers name is Brother Tanner. Having this teacher has really built my testimony on the principle we had before.  It was really hard to see our other teacher go, but this teacher has been everything I needed.  Its funny because they are just my age but they are so wise.  Anyway, I was having a really rough day and I just wasn{t very happy… you know how I can be.  I just felt like I didn{t belong which is my least favorite feeling in the whole world.  I know that I will probably learn to get over that in the next couple of months, but I just felt like this was the wrong place for me to be.  I was told that Brother Tanner has super human sister missionary senses and he can tell when there is something wrong but I really didn{t believe it. But, I had this really bad day, and I think he ditched the lesson plan just to testify to us about the importance of the work. He really acted as an instrument in the hands of God in ministering to my need.  I feel like I can say like nephi that “I… will show unto you that the tender mercies of the Lord are over all those whom he hath chosen, because of their faith , to make them mighty even unto the power of deliverance”. He started talking about the people of Korea and why he loves them. He talked about how America is so unique because it is so individualized and that Korea just has this sense of oneness. Really when you are talking to someone, you never say “you” its always “our”.  It makes our jobs as missionaries kind of hard, but its really kind of a beautiful principle. When you are living with roomates or your companion, don{t be surprised if they just take your things. Because you are companions and such, whats mine is yours and what is yours is mine really is true.  They are such a kind, generous, and sincere people and I have so much to learn from them.  After he told us that, I just really felt like I really do need to go to Korea to learn from the Korean people.  Anyway, Brother Tanner just bore his testimony and said that Heavenly Father knows and understands absolutely everything that we have put on hold and given up.  He testified that we really are not alone in this work.
I did a lot of thinking last week about my family
Whenever things were really hard and I felt like I was all alone, I would just go to my family.  Someone would always say something that was just perfect something that I needed to hear.  I saw this thing that Brother Tanner testified of first hand.  When I felt alone, Heavenly Father put words in a teachers mouth to teach me that everything was ok.  It took one very perceptive person to see that there was a real need, but Heavenly Father showed me that although my support system is far away and not always a phone call away, he will always send someone to fill that position when I really need it.
Something else that I have remembered is that I am stronger than I think I am.  I feel like each time I go through something, he stretches my faith and my patience further than I think I can take. But in the end, I am saying to myself “bring it on, I can do this”.  I am stronger than I think I am.  It is required of us to be stronger than we thing we are, because in reality, we are much stronger than we give ourselves credit for.  I am grateful that God knows exactly what we are made of and what we can handle.
Something that made me laugh:
Um, going to Dr. Brady makes me laugh.  I have had to go everyweek and sometimes, it hurts pretty bad…. The day that I had a really bad day, I went on a really hard run.  It felt so good, but I definitely paid for it in my visit with Dr. Brady today.  So, he was working my leg and it just hurt really bad.  He then gave me a shot in my hip which isnt unusual, but it just makes me laugh because he marks all of the points that he needs to give a shot. Last week, I remarked to mom, that when I come back to the MTC and wash all of the sharpie marks off, its like there is a little treasure map drawn on my leg.  So, today I came back and the map was complete with dotted lines _ _ _ _ and little x where i got the shots.  It just made me laugh… did Kaela tell him about the treasure map thing?
Note:  I think that she ran out of time and the computer kicked her off.  I will post some pictures tomorrow.
My dearest Family and friends,
It is week 9.  Do you know what that means?  It means that if I were a spanish speaking missionary, I would be going to my mission this week.  But, I’ve got 3 more weeks after this one which is awesome because I am here for Christmas and new years.  Also, sister bauer who went home for medical reasons has a little more time to try and get better so that she can go to Korea with us!  If everyone could pray for her that would be wonderful.
 Something that made me think…
I have been thinking a lot about happiness this week and what makes us happy.  We were sitting at the dinner table last night and one of the sisters in my district was cheerfully chatting away like she usually does when she stopped and thought for a while.  Then, she said, “I am happier than I have ever been in my life”.  I did a quick evaluation and found that I was pretty happy about my life right now too.  Although there are so many people that I wish that I could associate with and talk to again, I found that I am pretty happy right now. She asked the rest of us if we were happier than we have ever been before too.    I feel like this has been quite a year of stresses that I would rather not have again. However, she asked when the happiest time in our life was.  I thought pretty hard about it and I would have to say that it was my senior year of high school.  I just remember so many good things from it.  It was actually a pretty hard time in life finishing up school and so much was going on.  However, I just remember having the most amazing conversations with so many of my close friends.  Staying up way later than necessary talking in a freezing car about why life is so amazing and what our purpose in life is and what we plan to do with our lives.  Especially evaluating what the most important thing to us in this life is.
When the sister asked that question, and I thought of those experiences, I realized that so much of my happiness then was because I was not only doing the right thing, but I was grateful for it.  I was continually counting the blessings that I had been given and not expecting anything.  Frankly speaking, i didn’t expect anything because I didn’t deserve anything.  But I am so grateful for friends that influenced me that way and taught me that this life is for us to be happy and grateful.  I am grateful that I realized early on what it felt to be happy… um, amen.
Something that I am grateful for…
I got another package last week! It was awesome.  Brody Bassett sent me trail mix, dried mangos, and fruit juice!  It was awsome.  Also, I am grateful for for my companion.  I was pretty stressed this week about… life.  For some reason, I just felt like I should just tell her every thing I was stressed about and she just comforted me so much.  Her faith is so strong.  You know in the book The Help the lady that writes down her prayers… I cant remember her name.  She writes down all of her prayers and then they are answered.  Well, my companion is like that. She doesn’t write them down, but she prays sincerely for them and everything just works out.  I also was pretty sick with something last week and I didn’t go to class.  She took SUCH good care of me.  She literally asked me every 5 minuetes if I needed anything.  I kind of felt like a lazy bum, but she would let me do anything so that I could get better faster.  She is so sweet and I am so grateful for her.  I don’t think she hates people as much as she says she does 🙂
Something that made me laugh…
So… here is how it happened:  I was walking to go to the health clinic with my companion.  We were going up some stairs and some Elders were in front of us. One had Asics on but they were like Nike frees.  So, I was just enthralled with his shoes and they started to go the opposite way.  So I just had to know if they were really Asics so I asked.  They were and I am really excited that they finally made some shoes like that.  I want to see some up close, but I can wait a couple months. So, the MTC has this overhang thing over all of the sidewalks and because they have them everywhere, there are poles everywhere to hold them up.  He was in the middle of telling me about the shoes when, just like a scene from a movie, I walked smack into the pole.  It really was quite a shock. Everyone was so nice asking me if I was ok and trying not to laugh.  But once I was over the shock, I realized what happened and started laughing.  But really?! This is the second time this month that I’ve run into a pole.  I am not a fan of the overhang thing.
Hang in there everyone!  I know finals are a beast, but its ok, just do your best.
OH, I almost forgot to tell you… Will someone tell grandma that Ken Jennings dad is the counselor in our Zone? He is awesome and he knows absolutely everything.  Something he does for fun is build Kayaks AND he uses them.  Thats basically my dream other going to Korea of course.  And mom, He served with Clyde Worthen in Korea.  You might not know who Clyde is but Sister Worthen will.
 Anyway, I love you much!
Hansen 자매
Dear Family and friends,
Boy this week has been… quite a week… I am not sure why, but I have been overwhelmed and stressed a bit. So stressed that I got a tension headache last night.  However, its ok, I am happy.  MOM I loved your story… oh and I love Debbi too.  I miss her and the office.  Tanya, way to go running with my momma!  She’ll get faster… just push her competitive spirit a little 🙂
Jacob and Kaela, you have hand written letters coming so… congratulations!  I love you.  Everyone else, I am SO sorry.  I go to Dr. Brady’s every week so I don’t have very much time at all to write letters. 
so… Something that made me think…
Last week, we met with our Branch President.  His name is President Shin and he is wonderful.  We were talking about Korean Culture a little bit.  Koreans have this thing called Jung or 정.  I don’t really know how to describe it, but it is a status in a relationship.  You know how we develop really close relationships with people and then some years later, that relationship is reduced to a mere acquaintance?  I am pretty bad at keeping relationships with people alive, so I am probably an offender of this principle of… life.  Well, in Korea that closeness is described as Jung.  To have jung between you and a friend would mean that you would die for this friend. You don’t lose contact and you treasure this relationship.  If for some reason you don’t keep  up with these people, you lose their trust and their friendship.  I have been thinking about this and how its relatively easy to get to know people and begin to care about them so much that you would really die for them.  However, this level of relationship is so easy to lose.  I think that everyone innately wants to have someone that they can experience Jung with, but it takes work in keeping up.  I feel like there have been so many wonderful examples of people that just naturally gave me this trust, but I haven’t treasured it as much as I should have.  I am a little nervous to go to Korea and to share with them something so important for their salvation and happiness and through that, develop jung.  I worry that i will somehow offend someone and lose this trust.  However, I am also so excited to develop this with people that I have seen.  That I knew that I would teach and grow so close to.  I think that this mission will be the best thing for my life.  I can already see it changing my heart…. although it is small, it is changing into the heart I long to have.  I don’t know if this makes any sense, but it is honestly what I have been thinking about. 
Something that I am grateful for…
I got my first package yesterday!!  The 8th ward sent it to me.  It was the sweetest thing to know that I am even thought of! I am grateful for the influence of our ward and stake and the people that have influenced my life.  I have learned so much from them.  I was writing thank-you notes to them a couple of weeks ago, and I was humbled at how amazing and giving our ward is.  My mind was filled with memories of my childhood.  People who had families and very busy lives were always inviting us over and having family home evenings and going on field-trips to salt lake and manti and even to their grandparents house in price utah.  I have been so touched at how selfless they have been and how much love they showed toward our family.  I find it amazing as well, that as I took the time to think about them, my mind was filled with priceless memories of them and how they had served our family.
Something that made me laugh…
I love my companion.  She is pretty unique.  She has so many strengths and I am grateful to have a companion like her.  Well, one thing about her, is that she is super blunt.  At first, it was kind of hard for me to get used to, but I have learned to accept it and we are just learning to work together.  So last month, after fast and testimony meeting was over, she told me “I thought in my head..if hansen chamae gets up, then I will get up, but if she doesn’t get up to bear her testimony, I wont get up”.  So, this fast Sunday, I got up and the first thing that I said was that she had told me that, so this week I got up.  I bore my testimony and sat down.  I sat down next to her and she didn’t say a word to me.  I think she was a little bit ticked. You see, that wasn’t very nice of me to just spring that on her.  So, she started bouncing her leg and it kept increasing in speed untill she got up (she just does that when she gets nervous).  She walked up there and said “Since my companion threw me under the bus, I figured I might as well get up”.  Blunt. Anyway, I am not sure why, but it just kind of tickled my sense of humor.
I love you all so much!  
I will be leaving in about 4 weeks!  I am SO excited.  It will be different, but I’m pretty confident that I will love Korea.  
Hansen 자매 
One more thing… CONGRATULATIONS to Braden and Jordan!  I wish I could be there for the weddings!